Birthday Celebrations

Amazing night last night spent with all my favorite people! We booked a lounge at FAME for my beautiful best friend Maja's birthday and after spending the early evening eating chocolate covered strawberries and taking photobooth photos we headed off to the club which consisted of dancing, drinking, catching up and just having an incredible time! An early 5.45 am tram ride to end a night you didn't want to end was to be expected I suppose. Today, even though it is her actual birthday, will not be spent celebrating sadly as we are both back to work, there is no end to the madness. 

Let's party!

It's this beautiful girls birthday! And tonight we celebrate! We both managed to get the night off work so finally have a chance to spend a little time together before we both head off to uni! Love you so much baby! These last four years have been the most incredible years and I couldn't have survived it without you! Even though we will only be a half hour away, I will miss you so much! 

Simpler Times

We work all our lives, in the hopes of having enough to provide for the life we always imagined. But in the process we forget that we are not truly happy. Always stressing about not having enough. Not having enough money, enough things, enough beauty, enough time.

What's the point? If we are all so afraid of time running out, then why do we waste ours in sadness and monotony? 

Time for a change perhaps.

Pressing Pause

Yep. Pretty much sums up my entire life.

No One Knows What the Future Holds

Have spent the past days trying to sort out everything for the big move, but I can't help wondering whether it will actually happen. First try visa application, resulting in a refusal of entry. The next one needs to be accepted or its another year, pottering around at home, not achieving all that much! Three weeks until I know for sure, Here's hoping!

Aside from this worrying, things have been working out quite well, everything else is sorted, plane tickets are booked and my new life is finally starting to get organised! For the first time in well, forever, my electronic calender has a use, and is filled up with all the events and lectures and welcome events for September. All that's left now is to find a job, because otherwise I can kiss a social life goodbye. One can't "party" in the absence of a little cash now can they?

Is it normal to be FREAKING out? As much as I am excited, this whole "living on my own" thing is new to me. I fear my survival! At least I have people only a half hour train journey away who I can run to and curl into a little ball in the corner of their room and cry. It's always nice to know you have that :D

New Life

I'd just like to point you to the fact that this is my university. 

There is a lake INSIDE my uni. Isn't it pretty?

One month! Where did the time go? 

Hidden Messages

Things aren't always what they seem.  

Get By With a Little Help From Our Friends

Well, its been an interesting couple of days. A lot of fun, mixed with alcohol, mixed with drama. But even though we fight, and we hurt ourselves and each other, somehow we will always manage to find the solution and fix what we broke. It just takes a little patience and a lot of understanding. Is that the meaning of friendship? I hope so, because I don't know what I'd do without you.

This was the last weekend before our gap year circle is broken, and we all go our separate ways. It's been an amazing year, and through it all we have stuck together and enjoyed every last moment (most of the time at least :P) 

Maja, Noam and I finally had our pre-party photobooth sessions again, and sadly they are our last ones together before Noam leaves to uni, so we obviously made the most of that, with hundreds of semi decent, slightly tipsy photos! Where would I be without such wonderful yet such weird friends? 

Sadly no celebrations tonight as Maja and I are back at work, but perhaps a couple, depressed, early morning half price drinks to make our job seem a little less horrible. 

Wish me luck...

Mending My Mind

Why are you the way you are? So much want, all forbidden. Leave me out of your mindless games.

You call me up and I melt. Melt on the outside with desire, and melt on the inside with hate. Hate for myself? Hate for you? Hate for the way things are. Leave me be to wallow and forget, don’t keep reminding me of why I can’t look my conscience in the eyes.

One week, vivid. Two weeks, images. Three weeks, blurry. Four weeks, forgotten. That’s all it takes to block the memories, to reject the ideas of what could have been when you leave. One day, repeated, relapsed. You’re back.

Am I addicted to you, or the idea of you? A drug? Or just a childish obsession. You string me around like a puppet and I am unable to fight my own compliance. Stuck in a glass box, too fragile when played with to rebel. Just set me down, so I don’t fear breaking, and can gain strength on my own.

There are many of us. Juggled around one at a time. I am the only one that knows about the others. Does that make me less foolish, or more? I alone carry the burden of knowledge, and yet I am only good for one thing. But that’s not enough for me. I won’t be THAT girl.

Find another “change” and another “little bit of excitement” because I have finally broken out of that glass box. I am not fragile or weak. I will be able to look at myself without guilt or hatred. I will not fill the box of stupidity like everyone expects me to. I will no longer be addicted or hypnotized or controlled.

I know who I am, and I am not THAT girl.

New Here

I'm new to the world of blogging so bear with me as I get the hang of things! I thought it would be a good idea to get myself a blog because it's helped me keep in touch with the lives of others and I thought mine could serve a similar purpose for them! 

Well I guess I should use the first post to introduce myself properly! My name is Marlese Geraets and I'm a 19 year old from New Zealand. I had never been outside of the country until the age of nine when my parents decided out of the blue that we would be moving to Bangladesh, a tiny country next to India, which I had never heard of before! But I was young and excited for a change of pace. It certainly was one amazing experience, but sadly after two years we were packing up and moving on again. All things happen for a reason though, and this move brought us to the wonderful Switzerland. We were only supposed to stay two years, but that turned into three, then four. And here we are eight years later, still in Switzerland! It's my home away from home. I will soon be leaving Switzerland and moving to the UK to study Hospitality, but hopefully will be back here in the not too distant future! 

THE FAMILY

This blog will likely include anything and everything that is happening in my life, friends, family, travel, photos, clothes, parties, food and perhaps a little dramatics every now and then. 

AND FRIENDS

Want more information? marlese.geraets@gmail.com :D