"We stopped looking for the monsters under our beds when we realized they were inside us"

4am. Tick. Tick. Tick. It's not a clock. It's the sound of your mind churning. Where do you go when you want to escape from yourself? Too many monsters.
I'm suffocating inside the circle of the monsters. The circle within myself.
My mind is foggy, but I can see you clearly. I'm scared, and I'm running. Running, Sprinting. I'm right where I began. A conveyor belt moving in the wrong direction. Turn it off. I'm Tired. I'm drunk.
Too many monsters. I can't escape.

Rules

Too many rules. Our lives are governed by the rules that have been set for us, by us, by society, by morals, by you.

Would we be happier in a world void of rules? Or would it just become chaos?

We as girls are unable to act in the ways of the opposite sex for fear of rejection, judgement and ridicule. But strip us of our outsides and what is left? We are all the same deep down.

Deeper, and deeper until we are empty. We are nothing but what everyone else is. But some things hurt me harder. Some things pain me deeper. How? 

There are no exits left, we crash landed into the deep. So just sit and wait for the water to consume you. Eventually we will hit the bottom, no matter how far down it may seem. The pressure is too high down here. My ears are bursting with the whispers that hide in the watery shadows.

How could you just leave me here? Lure me into the plane, with your helpful hand and hypnotizing smile. Then let me sink to the bottom as you glide to safety, floating freely because you left all the weights of the past strapped to my ankles. 

I can't move on. Cemented to the ground. My body sways and floats but my feet are stuck. I'm drowning.

Don't break the rules, even if it will save your life.

Welcome to the University of Surrey

I'm here and getting settled finally. I know I haven't updated you all for a while but things have just been so busy and hectic! It's freshers week and I'm all moved in, pictures are up on the wall and shelves are full of things. Surrey is awesome! The town here is so cute and the campus is beautiful. Its massive though so I'm still trying to figure out my way around! 

Next week we start actual classes, both exciting and intimidating! In the mean time here are some pictures of the goings on over the past week! :D